Friday, April 29, 2005

Emotional eating

I just polished off a box of Slowpokes that I started yesterday. You know those chocolate covered peanut and caramel yummy goodies! (insert drool here ______). They will slowly but surely poke their way to my thighs as all good foods do... Why is it that women have some sort of chemical imbalance that makes us eat under stress! Why is it that hard core chocoholics would do ANYTHING for their chocolate? The relationship that men have with food is so different to ours and yet we care way more to loose that extra 5 pounds... Is it purely an emotional addiction? Anyhow... totally irrelevant thoughts since I should be studying for tonights exam.

Cry baby

I am not sure what is exactly makes me cry when my parents say "What's wrong, you seem stressed?". Maybe it's the opportunity to finally open up and tell someone I am totally panicking and anxious inside. Although I have been studying like a crazy nut-bag, being at the library for excessive length of time cramming my brain with four different subjects, two out of my three exams so far have been disastrous. The move is tomorrow and all there is right now in the current apartment is empty boxes meaning I foresee an all nighter to get all this shit done. The painting is not done at all in our new place and it doesn't look like it will get accomplished til after we move in. Then there's always changes of addresse, choosing our Illico channels, opening up acounts... Work has been calling me in like crazy to fill in the shifts of one of my co-workers' who's mother past away. Makes it look like my stresses and problems are minute therefore I have been working way too much. My heart is pounding, my hands are shaky, and my brain is working overtime... I guess I'm still a baby like that to go seek comfort and help from my mommy and daddy.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Road Block

Why is it that 'Happy Birthday Lianne!' are the only words I can think of for my step moms card. Not only is it belated, I cannot even muster the effort to build two sentences.