Thursday, February 03, 2005

This blog: edit free

When I got a comment yesterday from Chris, a wave of embarrasement (or paranoya) came over me. I thought Chris was my high school friend, a friend I was once ultra close with, spend our entire school days with together, his mom treated me like the daughter she never had. Everyday I would go over to his place after school... Chris was supposed to be my grad date but at the last minute things got all screwed up when he found out I was seeing one of our friends and Chris confessed his "undying love" to me. It put me in an awkward position since I really loved him as a friend and it made me feel betrayed that I shared all those times and secrets with him when we didn't feel the same about eachother. Anyhow, I suppose that happens to all women when all they want from a boy is a great friendship and all the boys want is to get in the girls pants!
Anyhow, I was paranoid enough to think that he found my blog. Ends up Chris is not my Chris... phew... Although we still talk and we still get together now and then... we are still aware of what is going on in eachothers lives but not the gory details that I post in this blog. For a couple of minutes I felt totally busted, he would think of me as a totally different person... I mean I write some really personal stuff in here... things that only I, Phil and occasionally my sis and Patricia know. I haven't let or given out my address to anybody besides Phil and even at that he is not my most faithful reader. I prefer it like that... if my sister or my friends knew about this blog then it would definately be edited and I don't want that. I can edit what I say to them but I definately should not have to edit my journal!

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

I love it!

While on the treadmill this morning, I was watching The View. One of the guest speakers was Mr. Well or something... anyhow, the author of a couple of health books. He gave six tips on how to "Get Healthy in 2005".
#1 Eat more Guacomole (can you say YUM!)
#2 Embrace carbs (thank you! as a semi vegetarien I stongly oppse the Atkins diet. Finally people should wake up and realize how ridiculous that fad diet is)
#3 Eat pasta
#4 Substitute soy protein with animal protein (I somewhat disagree... all depending what animal)
#5 Drink red wine (FANTASTIC!)
#6 Exercise regularly
I think it's great how he turned "don't est carbs" to something more positive and healthy like "embrace carbs" and "eat pasta". Stupid atkins!

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Skinny jeans!

I read a health article once that urged all girls to throw away their pair of "skinny jeans". For boys this might sound strange but for girls who own "skinny jeans" know how frustrating it is to occasionally try them on for the chance that they might fit again. This article explained how discouraging this is for women and how it takes a toll on their self esteem. Point taken but the author in turn, discouraged us by writting that we are fooling ourselves into thinking we will ever fit in them again. My news is this: although it is upsetting to be unable to squeeze your bum, thighs or waist in that beautiful pair of pants, it gives you a goal, and once that goal is met: God damn it feels great! Last friday, as I was getting ready to go out I tried on a pair of jeans I havn't worn since May. I actually bought them in May thinking I would loose a bit of weight during my two month backpacking trip. Anyhow, when I first came back from my trip, they were really snug and then eventually they didn't fit. Well to my surprise they did fit (fit fantastically well) on friday. So today, I decided to try on my "skinny jeans" for the first time in months. Now, I haven't worn these jeans in well over a year. I bought them when I was probably at my skinniest. I am not kidding myself into thinking they fit like they used to... I am not at my skinniest but point is, I am healthy and they fit! They are quite snug and I may want to strip them off me first thing I do when I get home but THEY FIT!!! It does wonders to the self esteem! I know what you may be thinking, that all this may seem a little obsessive... to the contrary... I am now half as obsessed as I once was about my body... I eat when I want and what I want and I exercise a bit less. I have a bubbly bum and that's fine... nothing wrong with losing a couple of pounds right?

Au revoir belly ring!

- I took out my belly ring since I felt my body being irritated. I have a suspicion my belly button is trying to reject it. It's saying "ok piece of metal, I've endured a big punch through me, an infection that lasted the first three months, and tugging and rubbing for five years now! GO away!" Although I did try to put it back, it just did not feel right... My belly button is extremely shallow and they had to pierce me with the smallest barbell so there was not much skin holding onto it for the start. So I think I decided to take it out for good. I like my belly now without anything on it. Phil can now stroke my stomach up and down without having to bypass my bellybutton area. I'm not missing it now cause I'm all bundled up but I know I may regret it this summer when I'm in my bikini!