Friday, November 26, 2004

Poke poke

This morning, as Phil is leaving for work my exact words were "there is nothing sexier than planning to have sex". The anticipation, the naughty, perverted thoughts of eachother, the longing, the waiting... The not getting what you want when you want, the fantasizing... It's our anniversary and we've been feeling really horny these days...
As I left the gyno this afternoon (yes, the vagina doctor), my exact thoughts were "there is nothing less sexy than having some strange man poking at your breast and vagina"!!! Shiver... As I stare at the ceiling with my bra untied, my bare bum, my feet on those metal thingies, and my legs spread, I never know whether I should start giggling or start crying... Either one... I hold it back... Good thing that is only a once a year affair!
On the other hand... There just might be one thing less sexy than that gyno appointment... For him to weigh me!!! By comparing to last year, I gained a big, fat, ugly 11 pounds!!! That is just wrong! In one year, 11 pounds! No kidding I have no more clothes, my ass is to big to fit into any of it. I know, I know, such bad-talking myself is not constructive but yuck! This sucks... And all I wanted to do to console myself is go get chocolate or some ice-cream or a donut!!! Anything... But I didn't...
I could have a million excuses: a started the pill just over a year ago, I am eating "healthier", I am not going to the gym 6 days a week, I am not as obsessed about my weight... Could be millions of things but really... I need to gain control over this!

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Just blabbermouthing!

I am exhilarated! A few more days until Phil and I's first year anniversary! How exciting. We might be going away and that is even more awesome since we are in dire need of some alone time.
Change in plans: we decided not to go through with the condo thing. To many factors are at play here and it just doesn't seem like a good idea at the moment. We have an alternative plan though which sounds even better. We are thinking about going to leave on the second floor of Phil's parents duplex. It's bigger then the condo, its still in NDG, its a nice old-styled place, we could use their backyard and on top of that, it would allow us to save some money to buy something of our own in the future! There's a fireplace, two bedrooms, a kitchen, a dining room, a living room, a balcony... its sounds so perfect! and so far it looks like its gonna happen! I cna't think of any disadvantages at this point... The thought of living in our own place sounds surreal to me! To good to be true.
Saw the incredibles this weekend. So cute! I really recommend it! Entertaining, witty, funny... Lived up to my expectations.
The school year is coming to an end and I really need to motivate myself to give a major last push... I had a huge advertising project and presentation due yesterday. It did not go as well as I would have liked it to but I cannot help but feeling ultra relieved that no matter what the outcome is... ITS OVER!!! I only have two major assignments due next Wednesday, and besides that three finals!!! I just can't wait for classes to be over with: another week!!!
I must focus, I must be productive, and sharp! Speaking of being productive... This blabbering must stop!