Tuesday, November 09, 2004

business stacy

I just fired off an e-mail to one of my team members from my advertising class sorta threatening him to get his act together and do some work by our next meeting if not all other three members, including me, will give him a big fat zero on his peer evaluation sheet. Now... for the amount of work he's done (perhaps came up with 5 or 6 statistics... practically nothing, not even put into complete sentences) and for the amount of meetings he has attended... he totally deserves a zero. First off, we were supposed to be groups of five but one of the members dropped early on so we decided four would be sufficient... however... we are now technically three members... and for the work that is invloved in this... wow... he has it good if he actually passes... but I work hard for my grades, and I lose sleep, and I stress myself out about it... and I spend hours doing the work and I seek great grades... but why doesnt he? why should I work harder for him, if he's not stressed out, if he doesn't lose sleep, if he doesn't seek good grades??? It boggles my mind... i want him to do the work... so that i can just sit here, relax, sleep, write in my blog...
but what is bothering me the most is that i wrote him an email telling him what work should be done before our next meeting and that if he doesn't do this, he'll get a zero... but of course, I wrote it in nice little sweet words when all I wanted to do is call him names... stupid slacker... fucking mouch... doesn't even have the guts to call us to tell us he can't make it to our meetings, he emails us 20 minutes before hand... god, why are there so many no-goods in this world??? I won't be satisfied until I can vent to him... but that wouldnt be very productive now would that be? that's why I have my dear buddy... Mr. Blog... oh, ya and Phil...
what's the worst part is that I truly had to make a conscious effort to be nice... I was thinking about what Phil said to me this morning: "there's the business-stacy and the home-stacy"... so I tried to blend those two sides together... dunno if it worked...

work, chocolate, and privacy

I have a four, 25 page assignments and massive amounts of reading to catch up on on my to-do list but my mind keeps wandering today... my eyes are dry and red, my brain in numb, and all my tummy wants is chocolate... as I should be working on my projects, all I want to do is sleep and if it wasn't for meeting one of my groups in an hour, I would have been in bed hours ago when my morning class finished... someone... help me get through this day... or better yet... through this never-ending semester...
things at "the apartment" are kinda stirred up... we have some new "rules" which I'm not quite sure are gonna be implemented and even at that I don't know if they are going to make us all happier... there is somewhat of an awkward feeling and NO MATTER what, I highly doubt I'll ever really feel at home... I hate to bitch and complain because Phil truly does a lot for me and it's so nice of him to let me stay with him... but I really want us to have our own place... just the two of us and BABOO!!! So much tension and anxiety will be relieved and that's not mentioning PRIVACY!!! wow... that is one word that had slipt my vocabulary...
Good news is, we have been quite active in the condo process... we went to that first informational meeting, then we went to the open-house this weekend and gave a deposit to show interest and tonight is another meeting regarding the finances... those bloody finances... I keep on telling myself not to get my hopes up but who am I kidding... they are sky high... just the thought of living with Phil alone in OUR place... not paying rent... decorating how we want... doing what we want... having so much privacy.... and so on... completely moving all of our stuff into one place symbolizes so much... how exciting...