Friday, October 29, 2004

early blog #2

Forgot to write that I got 83% on my advertising exam!!! It's worth 25% of my mark so I am off to a good start! I am giving myself a pat on the back as I type... the best part is that I almost got perfect on the essay part of the exam: 98%... stupid multiple choice brought me down!

Early morning blog... me so tired

Waking up at 6 AM when it is cold and dark outside is NOT human. Especially when it's to take public transport for an hour to babysit two little monsters who's favorite words are NO, go away, I hate you, and WHY??? arggg... I don't mind helping my dad out but enough is enough... they ate unpleasant with me plus I lose so much sleep...
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Phil and I got into another fight before yesterday. It seems to be about the same old shit though... I thought that would change when he started working but I guess not. I was furious that he actually told me that school is ALL I do... yes I am well aware of that BUT how could he say that to me the day that I got my consumer behavior exam back, with a puiny, stab in the heart, 53% ??? such a killer...
I've never been this broke. Not working is putting me further and further into debt... I am too young to be in the minus X thousands!!! Fair enough, I took a two month trip and a two week trip... but still, I am used to having an income and now I have nothing at all. So that's an added stress. I supposed I panicked and I told Phil that I don't think I would be able to move in with him this summer... as it is now, I am not paying for anything except for dinners and stuff but that's it... and even at that I have to credit card it up... He didn't take that well at all, he was crushed.
That being said, we are attending a meeting on saturday relating to some apartement buildings/condos they are building in the neighborhood. They are especially for young people wanting to own and they are really reasonably priced... it may be disastrous and gettho but it's worth going and putting our names on the list... you never know.
The fight stemed from that when Phil said "I am going to the meeting on saturday". Dilusional little me thought he was excluding me from that plan and felt like what was once a "we" was now an "I"... funny how my brain and emotions function sometimes...
but as always, after a fight, things are back to being great!

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

me myself and I

After finishing my midterms (how satisfying and relieving), I spent a great weekend. When I got back home on friday, phil had a rose and a nice bottle of wine waiting for me on the kitchen counter...how cute is he?... on saturday, I decided not to open a book for it was time for a brain-break. Went to the gym and then Phil and I went on a movie and dinner date. Shark's tale is funny and really entertaining... I am no judge though... I am a true sucker for animation films. That was the end of that weekend since I spent seven and a half, tidious hours with my business communication class on sunday... yes SUNDAY!!! when did that ever become a day to do homework and group projects with obnocious... lazy... people! all I want to do on sundays is cuddle up with my baby and sleep and watch movies...
Anyhow... I've realized that school is my life and I really don't have any new and exciting stuff going on... I'm a loner...
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I am being neglected by my team members... first of all, I have 5 classes and four group projects... needless to say, we have meetings regularly... but what gets me purple in the face is that I never cancel meetings and I always show up ON TIME. They on the other hand, couldnt give two shits... for tonights meeting, two of the guys cancelled and i cannot get in touch with the other dude... so it looks as if I am having a meeting with me, myself , and I...but these are team marks! So good ol' controlative me is the glue that sticks the group together and directs people where to go and what to do cause if not... the work will never get done... I don't check my mail for a few hours and I have 10 new e-mails... all about
school... they need me to hold there hands and walk them through every step... arggg... I am not ready to be a mommy... seems like I am playing that role a little to much these days... besides... I am way to much of a bitch with them... team leader my ass... can you say team bitch?