Wednesday, July 14, 2004

Itching to get out of here...

Spent a perfect weekend with Phil: we went back to Stowe for a couple of days... it was filled with romance, hiking, swimming, and good eats. it was nice to be on our own... got back last night and on the drive back i started analysing and dreaming of going away again... not like two months wasnt enough but this little vermont getaway was a teaser! i told phil about my sudden urgency to flee the country with him. the difference between the two of us is that he has more holding him down: a job, an apartment, and so on... and he says he is totally willing to leave everything behind. on the other hand, i am unemployed, living with my mother and i feel like i need to make a change! where is this coming from??? i fantasize about buying land somewhere, working abroad, or taking a road trip to mexico...
Let me introduce you to my obsessive personality: wether its obsessivly cleaning, working out or whatever... i tend to obsess over things... i guess traveling or making a move with phil is my new obsession... have i mentioned my obsession about phils ex??? he was with her for 6 years, lived with her and obviously still has some ties with her and they see eachother now and then... i have somewhat of a jealous character... i know i shouldnt be jealous of her but i find myself being curious about her... dont ask...
thats how i am feeling these days... itchy...